Back to nowhere...

I'm tired now...
Completely...
Why so many pressure???
Why so many "have to"s ???
I'm f*cking pissed off

A new begin ...

Yes, I'm back... with smile and with cry
Smile for hope n cry for disappoint....
I don't know how to live on
I don't know how to live as the others expect I would do
I can't make them n myself disappointed again... anyone... anymore

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Can I do it? Can I make it at the end ???
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What a waste !!!

OK, It did happen as I already expected
It is even worse than what I would think of...
I can't believe it...
I RUINED everything...

I know to do nothing at the moment...
Leave it or continue???

Only one day left...

I will leave, but not happy... worried instead :(
Another year has passed...
What have I done for this year? Nothing at all, I've been wasting too much time... everything ...
I failed doing every plan I made at the beginning...
I DID NOT try any best of mine to reach what I HAVE to get...
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All are my OWN FAULT...
I can't say It is because of ... anything, but MYSELF...
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Now I can only HOPE and PRAY for what is coming in the next one week...
Please, I've been receiving too many already... Please don't make it any worse...
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I need you to give me strength to stand until that result ...
Wish you could be here with me now...